Frustration

It is amazing how life is like a roller coaster that you never seem to be able to control the direction. Each morning when we wake up we follow the same routine, we go to work or we do our normal routine running around then slowly the day wears on until night takes over again and then we start again the next day.

When do we really sit back and say what have I achieved for myself today, how has this made me a better person or how have I helped others make their life a better life.

My frustration stems from why can we not find the time to do this and why is this not the way that we should be living our lives? We always wake up wanting to do better for ourselves and for others, even those that seem to not wanting to do this but their underlying commitment to themselves if you look deep enough may actually be that they are doing it to make their life a better life or to do something for others.

It just seems to me that regardless of what we are really do is never achieving what we really want to achieve - we are always wanting something better and when we achieve that we want something else. But really - why can we not just accept and be happy with what we are at and just strive to get to where we would like to be rather than constantly pressuring ourselves to achieve something better?

Getting on top of it all

It is funny isnt it - you get 2 weeks off for holidays and you have great plans, great ideas and yet life just seems to get even busier over this time!!! During the break from classes I had some great ideas to organise my timetable, update my blogs, put together my welcome pack, start on my website etc etc etc but I seem to have achieved nothing. Only today I have been able to sit and look at the classes but this has still only been for a couple of weeks of planning. Why is it that when you think you have a free moment everything just takes control? Is it that we are losing control or that we step back from things and take a bit of a more relaxed approach only to find we lose our time management skills.

I have high hopes for myself and my plans but just cannot seem to find the time to sit down and really plan them. I worry that I am not achieving everything that I should because I cannot sit down and focus on 1 thing, I get concerned that I am missing something as there never seems to be much homework and then I worry that I am not getting enough done around the house that the husband might start to feel a bit hard done by.

If only I did not worry I am sure that this would be so much easier!!!! Wish my luck to get back my time and maybe then I can start to really see things happening!