It is funny when we let things build up on us we end up snapping for no reason when we finally lose control. There is no reason for us to bottle things up apart from the confidence that we lack in being able to face these things at the beginning.

I have a large problem being able to control my anger when I let things get to me. Little things start to take over and regardless how many times I tell myself I am being silly I still have trouble snapping out of it. At this stage I start to feel that I have lost control and can no longer see things as they truly are but start to adopt the victim mentality. For this reason I start to find everything hard to deal with.

I know it is silly and I know really I should not worry about it. I feel like a half way house for the moment but I know people will all be gone in 2 weeks, I feel that people are taking advantage of my niceness but again is it really that I let them because I am too scared to tell them otherwise in case I upset them? I believe all of this comes down to not understaning how to explain myself with confidence. People want to see me and be with me I should appreciate that, yes I am really busy at the moment but this is choice and in the long run this is worth it. I need to take control of myself and keep telling myself not to worry about what will happen but work on making what I want to happen. Understand that I have the control and realise that it really is not much of an issue. Learn to let go and not let them get to me would be the best answer and keep reminding myself - does this really matter??

If I look at things realistically, the answer is NO and just remember to remind myself that I need to enjoy my life.